Sadly the Lord had plans for our baby that did not include him or her coming into this world safely.  We had complications early on, but were able to see a strong heart beat. Usually this means there’s 10% or less chance of miscarrying.  But, someone has to be in that 10% and this time it was ours. Its so hard to understand why these things happen… until you remember that this world is not perfect, and this world is just a temporary home. 

We live in a fallen world, which means, we live with imperfect bodies, and imperfect health. It does not mean however that our Lord does not love us or does not care for us or that He is not in control.  As sad as it is for us, who, in 9 short weeks, grew so very excited to meet our little one, we know that baby is now made perfect and has joined the Lord in heaven.  Life is full of loss, and life is full of tragedy. But through it all we hold fast to the truth that the Lord in heaven is in control. That when we have a relationship with him, we know where we are going.  We take heart in knowing that someday we’ll walk the streets in heaven and we’ll meet the little ones we never got to hold here on earth. (And hold tighter to the ones we do get to hold here!)

After a week or more of worrying because I wasn’t puking yet, today I had a nice full day of the pukes. How weird is it that I was looking forward to puking? It’s been a bit nerve wracking this whole not puking thing. I puked from six weeks on with both Vienna and Ziva, so naturally I expected the same from this baby, and when I didn’t start puking (I’m now in my 8th week) I stared to worry something was wrong.

Ziva, my precious little baby, has been so kind as to help as best she can. She’s given me SEVERAL diapers worth puking over! AND she kept me from getting the slightest bit of a nap today. The moment my eyes would close and I’d get that nice floating ahhhhhh feeling… scream! She would wake up. Apparently the poor little dear is having a traumatic day! That’s ok, between the screams (I’m thinking gas and by the smell of her diapers, other gastro-intestinal-disturbances-of-another-kind) she’s been a charming flirty little girl! When she smiles, you can’t help but smile too! No matter if your head is in the toilet or not!

Vienna’s had her share of frustrations today too. She apparently is not happy with the amount of attention she is getting, because while I was on the phone with the hospital (she has some follow up tests to be done) she BIT ME! She bit my arm so hard that three hours later there were still teeth marks on my arm! Yes, she did get sent to her room! No, she did not go peaceably. Yes, in the end, I won. I am mom, hear me roar. She is now happily playing with her sister. Well, sorta, she’s giving her sister a concert! She has this “high school musical’ microphone thing. I’ve never seen the movie/show whatever it is, but I can sing two of the songs from it!! This thing is like a mini kareoke machine and plays two of their songs for you to sing along with. And yes, at two and a half Vienna pretty much can sing both those songs.. and yes, I want to pull my hair out!!! tee hee hee… just wish I could change the songs, I’m not so sure I like her memorizing them!

I think on days like this the kids act up because I really think it freaks them out when I puke. Vienna especially. Thankfully she missed most of it today but I think once was enough for her. She’ll get used to it ha ha ha…

So, thank you Lord for the confirmation pukes I’ll rest assured now everything is alright You can go ahead and revert me back to how I was feeling last week tee hee hee… Hey, even with today’s pukes, I feel much better than I did with the girls. So, I’m really not complaining, just sharing the joys of my day

I’m off to form the experimental turkey burgers that I have attempted to make for this evening. Humm… maybe I shouldn’t experiment while pregnant. They sounded sooo good last night… now I’m not so sure! Here’s hoping (don’t worry, I have Abby’s Pizza’s phone number memorized!)

Yep, come the beginning of January Bibles4 will become Bibles5!  So far this little “surprise” bundle of joy has not kept me puking day and night like the girls did. Perhaps a boy? We’re just praying all is well and that the baby stays safe and healthy.  So far exhaustion has been the number one symptom, but we’re still in the first trimester so this is to be expected. It seems we’re expecting around January 9th, which for us usually means a week later! ha ha ha… so no extra tax deduction for this year ha ha ha… but that’s ok with us.

I’ve been quite delinquent at blogging.  We’ve had a bit of a crazy life this last three months or so with just adjusting to combined household living.  There’s not been a lot of exciting news other than the baby news I just gave.  So my creative juices have not been flowing so well for the blog.  Sam’s done some revamping to make it look more “me” but we still need to get photo sharing back up here too, cause I don’t see that option anymore   The other thing is the enrollment into FaceCrack, I mean, CrackBook, I mean Facebook! MAN talk about sucking up all my time!! It’s a bit addicting keeping up with everyone who’s on there! It’s been fun though.

I’m in the midst too of helping plan my 20th Class Reunion.  I can not believe I am that old!!!!! Goodness Grief!!!  It has been nice though already catching up with some of my classmates at planning meetings. Its amazing to see how different all of our lives have turned out!

I’ve been enjoying taking part in the church Ensemble. Our music pastor has been trying to do a choir/ensemble once a month at church and it’s been great fun for me to be a part of it. I sooooo enjoy corporate worship and there is nothing better than actually singing with people who can sing (thankfully they tolerate my amateur vocal chords!) Easter was incredible! It’s my favorite holiday to reflect on all that the Lord does for us and how He seeks relationship with us, even though we don’t always give Him the time that is due him. It saddens me to see people going through the motions in their faith. Easter and Christmas always make me a bit sad as it is sometimes the only two days out of the year that some people come to church and seek the Lord. They see it as a requirement or a “good thing to do” instead of the joy that it is to know we are free from sin, we are forgiven and we are able to relate with the Lord personally on a daily basis, without pomp and circumstance, without intercession and ritual, without performance or works… just as we are, with needs and all. This Easter was especially poignant for me as we think about time after life on earth. Sam’s cousin Jeremy is very ill. He has an aggressive form of brain cancer, and while we still pray and believe the Lord could give us a miracle at any moment, it of course has us thinking about the end of this life. It’s exciting and scary to think about!!! Even as believers, when we know that we will go to heaven and be in the presence of the Lord and other loved ones who have believed and gone on before us… I guess it makes you think, Do I Measure Up? Will I make it? Scripture is clear that the “road is narrow” and that not everyone who is a “good person” makes it. It’s hard to understand that… thankfully the Lord is a perfect judge, who can judge each of us as individuals, on our hearts, and our faith that He knows even better than we do. I’m so very thankful that He came to earth and died on the Cross to give us forgiveness of ANY sin… that’s sooo amazing to me ANY sin is able to be forgiven, no matter how heinous! Even the Charles Manson’s and Ted Bundies of this world could be forgiven if they just accept the gift of forgiveness and allow the Lord to rule their lives! Not all choose it unfortunately, but it is available to all!!! We just need to be humble and give up our pride enough to say that we are not perfect and we do not always want what’s best for us, and allow ourselves to be guided by what scripture says and what we feel the Lord would do… We are such a selfish people that we can’t give up control of our lives to the “Parent” who really has what’s best for us in mind! Anyway… I’ve got a little sidetracked from my “update”.

We had our first week long vacation ever in May. We once again retuned to the Oregon coast and stayed in our favorite vacation rental. It was a glorious week… but I’ll blog about that next post J

At present we continue to live together with my parents. Seems like things are turning around for them. The real estate market in our area seems to be picking up again and now that they have renters in both of their spaces it seems like they will be able to keep their heads above water. The Lord continues to provide for them with clients and other such things. It’s good to see the relief, but we’re still praying hard as it’s still not easy.

So, that’s really all that’s been going on with us since our last post. Now that I’ve caught up again I’m hoping to keep with it (and off of FaceCrack so much!)

Happy Memorial Day to you all!

I know it’s really on the late side for this, but here’s some election info I came across today and really liked.

Voter guides: Value Voters Guides

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No, I’m not a lush. No, I’m not a drinker. And no, I don’t have a problem with a taste of alcohol now and then in an appropriate situation. (The Lord did turn the water into wine after all… but I digress). I just do not understand why I can not purchase Pisang Ambon in the U.S.!!! I’m sooooo frustrated! I must have dreamed that you could get it here for some reason, because I totally thought I had seen it in the store at one time… so I shared, I shared the bottle I had (and had bought ten years ago!!) a lot this last summer (when I was expecting and couldn’t have any myself!! This bottle lasted me nearly ten years because I drink it a table spoon at a time over ice… and I LOVE IT!!! But I can’t get it without leaving the states! It’s a Dutch product from my understanding… Made in Indonesia by a Dutch company I believe… idk.

Oh how I want to win the lotto so I can fly over seas for a vacation and pick up a bottle of this lovely stuff… Green Banana is what this is! It’s the tastes like candy, banana candy, only better… it’s not just banana, but that is the strongest flavor. Everyone I shared it with LOVED it (and yes, I’m careful who I share such things with)… but this is what I want for Christmas… just this… I don’t need anything, I’ve got so much, but right now I would love to be sipping on an ice cold table spoon of Pisang Ambon… I’m sure if I could import it somehow I could make a fortune just marketing this product! (even more if it weren’t actually alcoholic). It makes your banana bread tastier, gives Fruit Salad’s a zing you can’t believe and makes a MEAN milkshake. But I can’t share it with you L because I can’t get it here… so anyone, if you find a way to purchase this (legally please) in the U.S. let me know!!! Better yet, let Sam know! J